Today as I scroll through my timeline on Twitter, it feels like nearly every tweet is about me. A couple friends call me back to back, like I didn't know I was on three-way. This was a systematized attack, yet I feel guilt instead of victimization. As I read all the sub-tweets, I become aware of the bottled up hatred that so many people have towards me. It hurts on a cellular level to witness such a reflection. One or two celebrities also follow me, which explains the commentary from people I once admired. I wish no longer to be here, as my fight or flight response has triggered the most fleeting reaction. But still….What is my why? What could have inspired such intensity? Self hatred that goes unattended will inevitably manifest in the physical world. Living on the vibration of hate makes us susceptible to harm from others on the same vibration…. Basically, karma's only a bitch if you are too. So here I am witnessing my own demise, as the world I once wished away is taken from me because I couldn't let it go.

